My day started off with the thought that I could conquer the world! Nothing was going to mess up my day! The sun was shining brightly and there were no clouds at all! Just like the weather, my day was going to be perfect!
The morning went according to plan as I prepared for the meeting, but by noon I knew I was in trouble. The harsh reality hit me squarely in the face. The truth that I subconsciously felt but couldn’t readily accept was looking me in the eye – the truth that I wasn’t the smartest person alive after all. As I sat in the meeting I could feel myself spiraling down. I felt laughed at, belittled, and embarrassed. I could feel myself heading for rock bottom. Instead of conquering the world, I felt overwhelmed and beaten.
What should I do? What could I seriously do? Find someone to blame? Just keep walking down the path I imagined as the way to success and simply hope for the best?
I sat there with my head in my hands thinking about what went wrong?
Proverbs 3:5-7 (NIV) says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.”
I realised I had set about my day without connecting with God. I relied on my own understanding rather than seeking His will. A calmness filled me as I laid all my decisions on Him, praying for His intervention in my situation. I prayed that I would always rely on His wisdom and not my own. I need to have the faith that His plans for me will be nothing short of the best.